Monday, March 21, 2011


1 Corinthians 13:4-11

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
 8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me.


[luhv] Show IPA noun, verb, loved, lov·ing.
a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
sexual passion or desire.
a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

To me, I want to be loved by someone who accepts me for my flaws, loves me for who I am in the good and the bad. I want to be accepted no matter what. I want to be loved unconditionally, not just partially. I want to know I have my best friend standing by my side supporting me through the good and the bad. To be loved, one wants to be appreciated, and accepted. Someone who wants to make me happy. I think love is someone who sticks by your side and opens up to you no matter what.

Most people show their love through 5 senses. Right now, I can't use all 5. Ears, Eyes, Taste, Smell and Touch. I can use my ears to listen, sometimes my eyes to see. But I can't touch, smell, taste.. and when those components are lost, sometimes a sense of the relationship feels compromised, and you feel lost and angry.

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down."
- Woody Allen

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Settling in

I can't believe I am only 2 months into this deployment. I guess I have settled into my groove because for the first month I was pulling everything out of closets, re organizing storage, starting flower beds, his side of the bed was always made up - it was the holder for my laptop, books, remote. And now the closets aren't so organized anymore, the flower beds aren't as pretty, the bed sometimes doesn't get made up and I sleep in the middle. I guess the one thing you never get used to or find fun is the fact your husband is gone and even though I may have the bed to myself I wish he were here to be taking up space in the bed, making messes so I could gripe at him. Military wives (and all spouses who are "left behind") are a breed of their own and can handle a lot. I am glad I was raised to be an independent woman because it has really came in handy in times like this, and I know it won't be the last time it will help out. I know throughout every time my husband and I are separated it will strengthen our relationship more and more each time. I miss my husband and Kinsley misses her Daddy very much. We are really excited to keep seeing the days pass until he comes home to us!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

busy bee!

I feel like I have been so busy lately! Where should I start? We are 2 months down in the deployment, so that is some positive news. Of course we still have a while to go but we are doing the best we can! I've been trying to stay busy with Kinsley to make the time pass quickly and the days seem to pass quickly but the time that my lovely husband has been gone just seems to be dragging by. I took little Anna in to be spayed last week and poor thing still has to wear a cone on her head, but she did very well, I never thought I would be so nervous to take a dog in for a surgery! I'm glad we have doggy insurance on her because she is one expensive dog haha.
I am trying to get Kinsley into a preschool so she may be starting in April, I think it would be great for her. I am also trying to get her into swim lessons too, or some type of sports class I think she would enjoy it. I have been babysitting, and we have had doctors appointments, and  dealing with normal everyday errands. We miss Daddy so very much and can't wait until he comes home